Welcome back to school all my students. Let's enjoy this wonderful ride called Fall 2013 together. I love my job, it's my dream. I don't now remember how old I was when I decided that what I wanted to do for my job was what I would be doing all day if I didn't have to work and I was left totally alone with no pressure to do anything other than what I felt like doing. So here I am. It's so awesome.
I realize that I am not everybody's flavor, so I apologize to those of you that find my means and ends unpalatable. Perhaps you can see me as someone who is conscientiously struggling to live an authentic life, at least. I offer myself as a role model in that regard.
My brain is shot, I have to clean my bunny cage, I am drinking a rock star, I haven't exercised today, I feel like a bloated blob, I want a nap. I've been eating way too much lately. I'm tired for most of the day. This adjustment back to school, totally new schedule, really kicks my ass. It is curious that I do not recall the adjustment to summer living being so taxing.
I am going to super focus on my internal sensations to guide me through this. When I get stressed in any way I go full on external, grasping outside of myself for anything soothing. It's not like the stress is always unhappy stress. Back to school stress is great, happy stress and I am happy to have it. My reaction doesn't vary much, happy or sad when I am stressed I am usually shoving something down my gullet which leads to me feeling very uncomfortable. So maybe I need to focus on paying attention to the internals. Maybe I am full, tired, thirsty, confused, etc.
