Do as I do?

I like the preachers who make me feel like they're in it with me. Not the ones who are like priests, i feel like they are looking down on me and it makes me feel like shit and that I am never going to get anywhere or be good or redeemed in any way because I am shit, essentially. The preachers who connect the Bible to their struggles, failures and successes, they encourage me, give me hope. I get the feeling like I have a task to work on when the sermons over, and that task is entirely doable.
So I like a preacher that's like a good teacher, or is like the teacher I strive to be. Let's cut the shenanigans my people, as a teacher I have more knowledge in my bucket, more training on how to seek and evaluate knowledge, but I go through the same processes you do to learn. So let's help each other out, I say. Let's recognize that we are in it together.
So I am back on the blog as I am so lucky to have a new crop of students with this assignment every semester and it forces me to try again to get on track, to do as I do and not as I say. I set the timer for ten minutes this morning, burning to get to the computer and type away, even though I have a frantic amount of stuff to do and if I don't get it done, I will appear to my students and colleagues as "disorganized" and "scatterbrained." Whateves, I say to that, if you can't take a step back and see the gestalt of my organizational scheme, and recognize that my seeming lack of attention is actually a hyper-attention, well to you I say whateves.
So I start again, I think this semester I am going to focus on a single topic: Notes to those who I want to thank before I die. So maybe that will lead to some cool stories and maybe I will change my topic if I get a flow that takes me elsewhere.
With that I have 22 seconds left and I have to make copies and whatnot. But the goal of my scribbling, or an added goal of my scribbling in my notebook will be this topic.